My Made to Crave Journey DAY 2

Yesterday was DAY 1 of My Made to Crave Journey, and here is how day 1 went. Here's me being honest, spilling it all, even what I am not proud of.

I had oatmeal with peanut butter for Breakfast, which kept me feeling full most of the morning. When it came time for lunch, I wheat made pasta with roasted veggies and tomato sauce. I picked out most of the veggies, because they didn't "taste good," and added Parmesan cheese, to make it taste better. :) I had some almonds and grapefruit for a snack in the afternoon. Around 5pm, I began to feel shaky. I took my temperature, thinking maybe I had a fever and was coming down with something, but I did not. Josh and I had dinner plans with Chrissy and Neil, so we headed for their house a little before six. When we got there, they had bean dip and chips sitting out, along with hummus and pita chips. Since I'd been feeling shaky, I convinced myself that eating would make me feel better, so I sat for at least twenty minutes eating the bean, sour cream, cheesy, salsa, vegetable goodness. But, it had veggies, so it must have been good for me, right? Wrong! I wasn't even hungry for the meal, but I still managed to eat taco salad with chips, and then. . . .some more dip. I had to remove myself from the vicinity of the dip to keep from eating it, AND, if I'm being completely honest, at one point, I even moved back next to the bean dip, even though I was already full!

I beat myself up, beginning the cycle again. Thinking tomorrow, will be better! But in the back of my mind, I told myself that it would never be better. Then I remembered to pray, and  that is exactly what I did.

In the introduction of her book, Lysa describes the three different areas that we as women fight a battle in

1. "Spiritually-  I have to ask God to give me the desire to eat healthy. I knew a vanity-seeking "want to" would never last. Shallow desires produce shallow efforts." I have to beg, pray, cry out to God, the way Lysa did, and if I know this, then each day, he will give me just enough want to, mixed with his strength alone, to make healthy choices, and to desire healthy things.  God gave me enough want to yesterday to walk away from the Dove Milk Chocolates that were leftover from a Christmas gift. Sure, in that moment, I only wanted one, but one would have become two, and two three, and three four. . . You get the picture. I prayed, and as silly as it might sound, God redirected my craving and gave me just enough "want to" to walk away from those tiny temptations.  He also gave me even more want-to when my husband made Cinnamon rolls at 9:00 last night. Who really needs Cinnamon rolls at 9:00pm? But as the amazing  sweet aroma began to fill our house, the answer to that question was, "ME, ME, ME, I NEED THOSE CINAMMON ROLLS!" But, I prayed for just enough want to, to pass them up, and afterwards it definitely felt like I had fought and won a battle.
2."Physically- When I began this journey, I finally had to admit what I eat matters. My weight is a direct reflection of my choices and the state of my health. You need to eat better and move more."


3."Mentally- I had to decide I was tired of settling, tired of compromising. What happens when you delete 'com' from the word 'compromise?' You're left with a promise. We were made for more than compromise. We were made for God's promises in every area of our lives. I am made for more than a vicious cycle of eating, gaining, stressing---eating, gaining, stressing.. I am made to rise up, to battle with my issues and, using the Lord's strength in me--defeat them--spiritually, physically, and mentally--to the glory of  God.


I am on a path that is going to offer me both physical and spiritual benefits. God is worth the effort that it takes to walk away from a  Dove chocolate or to say no way to a late night Cinnamon roll. God is worth it, and even when it gets harder, he will continue to be worth it.